I still have not grabbed my morning coffee yet but I have checked my email. I think I might be doing things just a bit backwards. I tend to put myself at the mercy of all those people out there who send me email. They want to sell me, enroll me, convince me ... about something, and my sensitive self picks up the confusion that swirls around all that stuff. Then I wonder why my day seems to constantly need balancing.
So going to get my coffee right now.
Alright, a nice cup of Breakfast Blend brewed with the Keurig machine that I won last year. I do have some luck at times and my life isn't as totally stressed as I tend to represent it to be.
No one likes making mistakes in judgement though, and that is just what I have been doing for the last year. Trusting and believing in the wrong people while the right people get ignored. I am really angry that I couldn't see through B's sham of a life and the games and lies he was playing. What a fool am I. On the other hand though, I cannot account or answer for his intentions in this process - I can only account for mine, and I really had the dream that I could help him and make a difference. I can't. He is delusional, and a master manipulator with an enormous ego that is large and in charge. He fooled me, I feel like a fool. He did all the things he has been doing in his 54 years on earth and he must be laughing so hard now because I actually believed in him and he knew it. Little did he know there was another sucker living so close by.
Today, I am going to meditate. I listened to an animal communicator online yesterday and when I focused on the meditation she shared, I realized I needed to do that as it calmed me down and helped me feel balanced. So, meditation is now going to be added to the daily schedule. After all, I am on the journey for joy and I think being peaceful is a good start. It is going to be a good day!
Later....
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